Kal Ho Na Ho

Assalammualaikum warahmatullah...
Apa khabar sahabat?


Tiba2 hati ini terasa teramat sayu. Fikiran melayang2. Entah apa yang difikirkan? Saya kurang pasti. Apa yang terlintas di ketika ini adalah tentang hala dan arah tuju kehidupan. 1 Oktober 2010 yang lalu genap umur saya 30 tahun. Lebih kurang 25 tahun lagi untuk sampai ke umur wajib bersara. Heheh...


Kosong.
Terlalu kosong.
Tanpa sunyi.
Tanpa sepi.
Kelu.
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Situations come and situations go. We not know what the outcome will be. Giving up not an option but a sign of being weak. I think i'll just take all the positives and let the negatives leak. I try hardest to be the good and the best that i can. Take the bad and turn it good and the good into better.

Keep my head up and move forward through all the bad weather. Mistakes are okay as long as i learn cause nobodies perfect. Be prepared for the possibilities and prepared to leave the past in the past and be prepared to grow.

For me, life is like a book.


It's have the cover and pages and the theme. But, not everything is the same on each page you see. Life can be in routine or it can change like every night lay to dream. Life is like a book that have different stages in life. The beginning wrote hardly anything and the middle is most interesting.


Life is like a book that can have time to go through it get into each day. But, when the book ends, there is no more life i say! Life is like a book. Because, it begins and ends has so much detail and souls to win or to gain popularity To fall in love with life is like a book it all matters on which life and book you pick.

I know it’s too late and i should go to bed. I know that tomorrow will give me no rest. Sleep is so mean. It imposes itself. It never forgives whoever stays awake. I know it’s late. I’m going to bed. I’ll put writing aside.

.... And sleep instead....

Kal Ho Naa Ho.mp3

Pathetique...

Apekejadah la on pc. Ngadap pc. Pegang tetikus nama gigabyte nih. Tapi tak klik apa2 pun. Dari jam 12 tadi langsung tak klik apa2 pun.Macam2 dalam fikiran nih. Serba tak kena. Apakejadah entah?

Rindu Junior. Tiba2 rasa rindu yang sangat dalam dengan Junior. Kalo dulu, balik ke rumah, belum buka pintu Junior dah terkinja2, melompat2 nak kena peluk. Kenapa entah? Tiba2 macam rasa sunyi.

Rindu Junior. Tiba2 tadi terbayang2 Junior sama2 melompat2 naik tangga. Terbayang2 juga Junior berlari2 turun dari tangga sebelah sana kerana salah rumah. Terbayang2 juga Junior buat muka tak bersalah bila kala dia bising2 di depan rumah tangga sebelah.

Rindu Junior. Terbayang2 lagak Junior yang suka buat2 tidur sedangkan jelas nampak lirik matanya memandang ke arah diri ni yang suka buat tak paham dengan pandangan mengharap dia.

Rindu Junior. Terbayang2 waktu main lawan mata dengan dia bila tiba2 rasa bosan datang. Terbayang2 tangan Junior yang cepat sampai ke muka ni bila kala dia tak boleh nak larikan matanya ke arah lain.

Rindu Junior. Terbayang2 Junior yang suka landing atas apa sahaja yang dia selesa. Terbayang2 Junior yang suka bawa makanan ke dalam bilik sampai bersemut merata2.

Rindu Junior. Terbayang2 waktu kali terakhir peluk dan cium Junior. Terbayang2 muka Junior dengan mata terbeliak yang sangat takutkan manusia2 lain yang tidak dikenalinya.

Rindu Junior. Rindu Tejin. Rindu Nacitam. Rindu. Sangat2 rindu. Sangat2 rindu. Sangat2 rindu. Kalaulah boleh kembali ke masa hampir setahun yang lalu, tak akan aku bawa Junior pulang ke kampung halaman pada Aidilfitri yang lalu.

Speechless. Im sorry Junior. Im sorry. Im sorry.

--==[[ KiLLinG Me SoftLy!~ ]]==--

I love you today and i will love you tomorrow.

Just some words to clear the sorrow that will never leave my heart or yours.

From this day forward you are so special to me.

I love you with all my heart always have and always will that never end.

You will always be with me as i will always be with you.

We will always be together until the end.

No doubt. :)

Killing me softly - Fugees.mp3

--==[[ If I Could Turn Back The Hands Of Time!~ ]]==--

--==[[ KLIK HERE FOR VC ]]==--

How did I ever let you slip away
Never knowing I'd be singing this song some day
And now I'm sinking, sinking to rise no more
Ever since you closed the door

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd still be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then darlin' you, you'd still be mine

Funny, funny how time goes by
And blessings are missed in the wink of an eye
Ohh Why oh why oh why should one have to go on suffering
When every day I pray please come back to me

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd, you would be mine
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd, still be mine

And you had enough love for the both of us
But I, I, I did you wrong, I admit I did
But now I'm facing the rest of my life alone, whoa

If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd, you would be mine, whoa
If I could turn, turn back the hands of time
Then my darlin' you'd, still be mine

Ohh I'd never hurt you (If I could turn back)
Never do you wrong (If I could turn back)
And never leave your side (If I could turn back)
turn back, the hands (the hands)

There'd be nothing I wouldn't do for you (If I could turn back)
Forever honest and true to you (If I could turn back)
If you accept me back, in your heart, (If I could turn back the hands)
And I love you

Whoa (If I could turn back)
That would be my will (If I could turn back)
Darlin' I'm begging you to take me by the hands (If I could turn back the hands)

I'm going down, yes I am (If I could turn back)
Down on my bended knee, yeah (If I could turn back)
And I'm gonna be right there until you return to me, whoa (If I could turn back the hands)

If I could just turn back that little clock on the wall (If I could turn back)
Then I'd come to realize how much I love you (If I could turn back)
Love you. Love you. Love you (If I could turn back the hands)

• I Know U Love This Song Once ...
• I Dedicated This Lovely Song For You ...

Low Man's Lyric

Tanjung Balau, Johor, Mei 2007 ...

It is dark in this place once filled with hopes and dreams. It is now only hatred and pain. I am on my own side while everyone else stays in the light. They are filled with happiness while i am filled with anything but that. No one is with me. No one will ever be.

My friends? They are happy and will never understand me. Nor will they ever wish to. I can't blame them. I would also want to remain happy but i have forgotten how. I don't know how to go back to the light. I only know rain and night and watch the moon.

It is my only friend. My only love. My only heart. My only someone who's can understands and listens and helps me throughout my life. It is my last light of hope, dream, and my one love that shall never be away.

Memories flowing in my head. Sometimes makes me feel so uncomfortable. It's jerk that i can't forget!~ Somebody told me that i'm crushed in the heart. Am i? The other told me that i need to start forgetting the bad times that happened in the past. But, did they know that some memories don't last?

This is the beginning. This is the end. It is everything from then to now... every dividend. The memories rising up and breaking ground. Come inside .. look in my head... do you see li

fe? Or do you see death? The past and the future come together.

I see the light, yet i'm in the dark. Sometimes i feel like i'm so together and sometimes i'm so broken apart. It feels so good .. but it's just too bad. I feel so happy…but I'm just too sad.

Why am i still crying? Why am i still hurting? Why am i still mourning for something i know is gone? Why am i suffering from a decision that have been made?

What did i do? What did i say to make you leave? Did i deceive you? No? Then why do you treat me like i'm nothing? No one important? Huh??

Can't you see i'm lost? I'm waiting for you to help but you turned away. You left me confused and outraged. I think i'm losing my mind. I've been uneasy. Lonely and depressed.

What do i do now? Wait for you? I can't. I've waited too long. I even gave you a second chance but you left again. Please don't ask if i'm not giving you anymore chances because you'll end up disappointing me.

Will you open up your mind and let me come inside? Or will you turn your back to me, and run away and hide? Everything to me is seen in black and white. I'm color blind to my own soul, though i search with all my might.

But i won't give up until i get through. And i won't stop until i'm deep inside...Just pray... that tomorrow.. The bad memories go away... You're useless and disappointing. I'm over you. I'm done.

• Tah hapa2 ntah ...Mimpi bukan2 jeh...Nak sambung tido balik dah tak buleh...
• Apa nak jadi entah? Macam bodo je rasa..
• Pegi mampus la kan... Engkau sapa? Aku sapa?
• Dulu mungkin la engkau ada kena mengena dgn aku. Sekarang? Aku tak tau apa yang engkau nak. Apa yang engkau pk. Apa agenda engkau.
• Apa yang aku pasti, aku punya seseorang yang aku sangat2 sayang. Seseorang yang aku percaya sampai mati. Seseorang yang sentiasa ada bersama dengan aku walau segelap mana pun yang aku rasa.
• Cuma aku sgt2 regret sbb aku tak mampu ludah muka engkau bila engkau cuba untuk dekat semula dengan aku.
• Aku bahagia dengan apa yang aku punya. Aku bahagia dengan apa yang aku lalui. Aku bahagia menjadi diri aku.
• Jujur, aku takut akan hilang segalanya kalo2 aku jadi diri aku yang sebenar. Tapi.. entah .. Biarlah takdir yang menentukan.
  
• Macam gampang jer ayat2 nih.. Ahaha!
• Layan la lagu kat bawah nih .. The best song ever form Metallica. Album reload. Masa beli kaset ni dulu, lama gile dah. Masa form5 dulu. Cemana tah buleh terapal lak .. Tak sampai 1 jam terapal. Ahaha! Sgt2 best oke! Official VC tak jumpa. Tapi .. Sile la layan!~
  
• Sekian. Terima kasih. Nak sambung tido. Harap2 Tak mimpi yg sama lagi dah. Assalammualaikum warahmatullah.. Daa~