Low Man's Lyric

Tanjung Balau, Johor, Mei 2007 ...

It is dark in this place once filled with hopes and dreams. It is now only hatred and pain. I am on my own side while everyone else stays in the light. They are filled with happiness while i am filled with anything but that. No one is with me. No one will ever be.

My friends? They are happy and will never understand me. Nor will they ever wish to. I can't blame them. I would also want to remain happy but i have forgotten how. I don't know how to go back to the light. I only know rain and night and watch the moon.

It is my only friend. My only love. My only heart. My only someone who's can understands and listens and helps me throughout my life. It is my last light of hope, dream, and my one love that shall never be away.

Memories flowing in my head. Sometimes makes me feel so uncomfortable. It's jerk that i can't forget!~ Somebody told me that i'm crushed in the heart. Am i? The other told me that i need to start forgetting the bad times that happened in the past. But, did they know that some memories don't last?

This is the beginning. This is the end. It is everything from then to now... every dividend. The memories rising up and breaking ground. Come inside .. look in my head... do you see li

fe? Or do you see death? The past and the future come together.

I see the light, yet i'm in the dark. Sometimes i feel like i'm so together and sometimes i'm so broken apart. It feels so good .. but it's just too bad. I feel so happy…but I'm just too sad.

Why am i still crying? Why am i still hurting? Why am i still mourning for something i know is gone? Why am i suffering from a decision that have been made?

What did i do? What did i say to make you leave? Did i deceive you? No? Then why do you treat me like i'm nothing? No one important? Huh??

Can't you see i'm lost? I'm waiting for you to help but you turned away. You left me confused and outraged. I think i'm losing my mind. I've been uneasy. Lonely and depressed.

What do i do now? Wait for you? I can't. I've waited too long. I even gave you a second chance but you left again. Please don't ask if i'm not giving you anymore chances because you'll end up disappointing me.

Will you open up your mind and let me come inside? Or will you turn your back to me, and run away and hide? Everything to me is seen in black and white. I'm color blind to my own soul, though i search with all my might.

But i won't give up until i get through. And i won't stop until i'm deep inside...Just pray... that tomorrow.. The bad memories go away... You're useless and disappointing. I'm over you. I'm done.

• Tah hapa2 ntah ...Mimpi bukan2 jeh...Nak sambung tido balik dah tak buleh...
• Apa nak jadi entah? Macam bodo je rasa..
• Pegi mampus la kan... Engkau sapa? Aku sapa?
• Dulu mungkin la engkau ada kena mengena dgn aku. Sekarang? Aku tak tau apa yang engkau nak. Apa yang engkau pk. Apa agenda engkau.
• Apa yang aku pasti, aku punya seseorang yang aku sangat2 sayang. Seseorang yang aku percaya sampai mati. Seseorang yang sentiasa ada bersama dengan aku walau segelap mana pun yang aku rasa.
• Cuma aku sgt2 regret sbb aku tak mampu ludah muka engkau bila engkau cuba untuk dekat semula dengan aku.
• Aku bahagia dengan apa yang aku punya. Aku bahagia dengan apa yang aku lalui. Aku bahagia menjadi diri aku.
• Jujur, aku takut akan hilang segalanya kalo2 aku jadi diri aku yang sebenar. Tapi.. entah .. Biarlah takdir yang menentukan.
  
• Macam gampang jer ayat2 nih.. Ahaha!
• Layan la lagu kat bawah nih .. The best song ever form Metallica. Album reload. Masa beli kaset ni dulu, lama gile dah. Masa form5 dulu. Cemana tah buleh terapal lak .. Tak sampai 1 jam terapal. Ahaha! Sgt2 best oke! Official VC tak jumpa. Tapi .. Sile la layan!~
  
• Sekian. Terima kasih. Nak sambung tido. Harap2 Tak mimpi yg sama lagi dah. Assalammualaikum warahmatullah.. Daa~
  

Ayam Masak Halia

Ayam masak halia. Bukan ayam tu tetiba amek halia buat masak oke! Nih nama masakan ayam halia. KohKoh!~ Masakan simple yang paling saya suka lah!~ Simple tak simple la kan. Agak leceh gak la. Ahaha! Kalo nak tau leceh ke tak leceh ... Sila la cuba ye! nGe .. Ini makanan saya pada hari Sabtu lepas.

Bahan :::

Ayam 3 ketul.
Lobak merah.
2 biji bawang merah.
5 ulas bawang putih.
Cili api tak tau byk mana. Belen2 je tuh. Jangan mara aa.. ahaha..
1 stgh inci halia.
Minyak masak. Jangan lupa beli kalo tadak! ahak!
Garam secukup rasa.
Air asam jawa.
Minyak bijan. 2 titik.

Cara2 Memasak :::




Mula2, stenbai la apa2 bahan yang perlu. Bawang putih, halia dan bawang besar semuanya dicincang halus. Bahan2 cincang sendiri oke. Guna pisau. Ikut la nak guna pisau apa jenis sekali pon. Jangan guna pisau lipat yg harga 5sen tu suda. Ahaha.. Dulu la harga 5sen. Sekarang dah jadi 20sen. Ada gak yang 30sen. Mahal dah. Isk.. nGaa... Sila klik la kat gamba tu kalo nak tengok halus ke tak halus cincang nya tuh. Ahak!~




Ini semua bahan2 yang dah siap dicincang2. Dipotong2. Dihiris2 suma bagai lah kan... Bawang besar cincang. Bawang putih cincang. Halia cincang. Bawang besar satu lagi tu hiris2 jeh. Lobak merah tu potong kecik2 aaa.. Cili api potong2 halus2. Tapi kan, kalo nak lagi menarik, lagi sedap, lagi berasa masakan ni, sila lah kisar. Blender lagi elok. Rumah saya ni tak ada blender. So, cincang2 je lah. Kalo potong2 je, tak sedap.





Ayam ni 3 ketul. Tak kisah lah part mana pun. Ikut suka. Bila ayam nya 3 ketul, maksud, bahan2 tadi tu untuk 3 ketul ayam lah! Tapi buleh la nak tambah 2 ketul. Jadi 5 ketul la maksima untuk semua bahan2 yang disediakan tadi tu. Lebih2 kena la tambah lagi bahan2. Oke? Pandai2 la gandakan bahan2 kalo nak guna seekor ayam pulak ye! Aiseh! Lari konsep! Nih .. ayam nih .. terpulang nak gaul dengan apa. Ada orang suka gaul dengan garam jeh. Ada orang suka letak kunyit. Saya suka letak kunyit.





Sebenarnya aktiviti menggoreng ayam ni tergendala selama lapan jam. Sebab lupa nak beli minyak masak masa kua gi beli ayam suma bagai nih. Huehuehue!~ Bahan2 nya dah siap time tengahari. Tapi mula memasak nya jam 9 malam. Huehueheu .. **sipu2 jap!** nGe! Pastikan minyak betul2 panas sebelum masukkan ayam tu oke!




Ini bahan2 bersama ayam yang dah siap digoreng. So .. kira mula lah aktiviti menumis lepas ni. Jaga2 cik selamah.. ahak!~ **buat muka ala2 samseng kampung dusun jap! o_O ** kOh! kOh!





Lepas dah keluarkan ayam, buangkan sedikit minyak dari dalam kuali. Masukkan saja semua bahan2 yang dah siap dicincang2. Letak garam sikit. Benda normal ni kalo time menumis. Untuk saya lah kan? Untuk orang lain tak tau lak! Hehe .. Somebody told me bout that b4!~ tQ! =D





Dah agak2 nak masak bahan2 ni, kecikkan api. Macamana nak tau dah masak ke blm? Tu pandai2 sendiri lah! Ahak!~ Saya kalo tengok bahan2 cam dah ala2 nak garing tu saya kata dah masak. Tapi, kadang2, tak tunggu masak atau garing pun. nGe!~ Erm.. rasanya .. dah naik bau tumisan tu kira dah masak la kot? Pandai2 sendiri ek!! aGagagaa... Lepas tu letak air sikit. Air asam pun dah buleh letak gak nih...





Masukkan ayam yang dah siap digoreng tadi. Air tadi untuk bagi rasa tumisan meresap ke dalam ayam. Haih!~ Lupa pula! Kalo tak suka ayam digoreng dulu pun takpa. Masukkan ayam masa ni. Tapi, kalau ayam tak digoreng dulu, kenalah letak air banyak sikit. Kena masak lama2 gak! Kalo tak nanti, ayam nye mentah. Masak lua jeh. Dalam tak masak. Dah penah kena dah ni .. Ahaha! lagi sedap kalo digoreng dulu. Time ni gak letak air asam kalo tak silap. Ke sblm letak ayam. Ntah? Lupa dah. Hehe..





Lepas tu masukkan bawang dan lobak yang dipotong2 tadi. Sebenarnya ada lagi sayur saya nak letak. Tapi, tertinggal pula kat tempat beli tadi. Tak ingat langsung! Dah on d way balik baru perasan takde. Bahan2 yang tertinggal tu lada benggala dengan sayur pokok tu. Apa tah nama dia. Kobis yang macam pokok2 tuh. Ada yang kaler hijau. Ada yang kaler putih. Masa kecik2 panggil sayur pokok, sampai ke tua pun panggil pokok gak! Ahahahahakkk!! Jangan gelak oke! Ahaha!!~ Jangan lupa tutup sekejap untuk bagi sayur2 empuk.





Time ni buka penutup, kecikkan api. Kacau2. Rasa masam masin manis ke apa semua rasa yang ada lah! Ke time ni kot letak asam? Entah? Tak kisah la letak masa bila pun. Yang penting, letak. Asam ni untuk hilangkan hanyir pada ayam tu. Kalo tanak letak air asam pun takpa. Boleh guna asam keping. Omak saya selalu guna asam keping. Hehe!~ Terpulang...




Dah siap! Gamba2 entry yang ni kureng sikit. Sebab snap guna hp. Camera ada orang guna. Hehe.. Siyes buleh leleh2 air lio kalo gamba ni terang cam gamba masak kacang buncis ituari. Ahahaa!~ Siap dengan asap2 nya.. Peeh .. Terasa lapa lak tetiba.. Isk..





Minuman macam biasalah kan? Air teh O panas. Sapa2 tak tahan pedas, stenbai la air sejuk. Huehue. Sebab, rasa pedas masakan akan jadi sangat2 terasa kalo ada halia. Sebab? Akan rasa macam berangin dalam mulut. Ni saya tau masa tengok Rasa Ayamas kat tv3 ituari. Hehe..





Yiiihaaa!~ Dah siap masuk dalam pinggan nasi! Sedap gile nih! gRrr..


So, that's it! Ini rezeki saya pada hari Sabtu. Yang tak best nye, siap bahan2 nya awal, masaknya malam. Makan pun lewat. Isk!~ Barang2 dibeli around 10 ke 11 pagi entah. Bahan2 dah siap sebelum Zohor kot? Pasal siap je potong2, cincang2 suma2 tu, saya duduk tengok tv, tetiba azan Zohor dah. Hekhek!~ Lepas tu, nak mula masak, tengok minyak takde lak. Haha!~ Overall, jangka waktu untuk memasak ayam halia ni adalah selama lapan jam. Koh! kOh!

Itu saja lah.. Sila cuba kalo nak rasa. Kalo taknak cuba, datanglah rumah bawak bahan2. Ahaha!~
Sekian. Terima kasih. =D

Sultans Of Swing ...

To a person who used to be my best friend...

A few years ago, you had been there for me. Through everything. The good times and bad, no matter what. And that time, i cannot wait 2 grow old and see what you have done with your life. Who you married, and what your children are like. To laugh, and reminisce over good times we shared together. We shared laughs of joy. Moments of pain. Tears of happiness. We earned care, understanding, as well as a place, in the heart of one another. We talked about our dreams, about being best friends for life, just about everything imaginable.

When in trouble, we helped each other with all our strength. When asked why,we simply smiled, and questioned back ... "What are friends for?" We walked right beside each other as we felt a friendly breeze. One that i shall never forget! We were close friends. I knew i could count on you for anything i needed. And when i needed you most, you were always there till the day you had to move away. I knew you still cared for we still can be friends only from a distance. But, we never get through phones lines to talk.

Last night, i heard your voice on the phone, but, i can't even say a HELLO! For now, we are not so called a friend anymore. Even though long distance i do miss our sleepovers. And the pranks you'd pull. And our long talks and our laughs we used to share. How you made me feel better just by being there? I miss you my friend. And i know you still care that we are friends forever. You and i, friends till the end. Or the day we die.

For me...

A friend is a treasure that everyone has. Sometimes they come, sometimes they pass. A friends will stay if there is no betray or lie. Or leave behind. A friend is need to succeed in this life. In this world were you can't live you can't breath. Life will be unfair but a friend will be there to give you hope, and faith and a path that is right to take.

This will lead you to your dreams that you never thought would come true. That is being friends forever with you. Sometimes you forget what your friend has done. You just stab in the back. And leave behind. But when it comes to them and they don't do the same, you just turn your back. And do it again. But, one day, you will be alone. Then you will realize that all you once had is gone.

But, my dear old friend .. If i ask .. Will u answer my question? Why so much hurt? Why so much pain? Why can't we do the same thing again? Why do we hate? Can anyone answer these questions? Where do people go wrong? I don't understand it. Do you? Is that me who'd doing wrong? Is that me?

One day its fine, the other its not so. The next day its back to the way we were. Why so many changes? Why can't we stay the same? Please just answer me this! Why do we act this way? Why can't it just be like old times? I don't see why not!

If you say you've changed a lot, i can see only one thing different. This isn't how we used to be. This isn't the way we're supposed to act. But i guess nothing will change and this is how its meant to be.

If i can say i'm sorry, why can't you say that it's Ok? Why didn't you say it back to me? It was such a while ago, what we did that day. I apologized thousands times and still you didn't care. I knew, i know you better then her, it was just a stupid dare.

She told me once, you said that i'm afraid to talk to you. Did you know why? Did u ask? Honest, i think, if i talk to you, you have to bring that up. Why can't you get over it? Why? Why does every single word will makes u hate me? Why? Yes, of course i'm still here, loyal, sincere friend. But, why didn't u come? Why? Just say your sorry and it's done! Do you dare?

Every time i think about it, i just want to die. You seem to get joy from these tears that i cry. I want us to apologize again last night. But, i think, all you can say is NO! And the worst is, u will be rude. But my friend, did i'm the one who did that bullshit? I want to try to say that i'm all right. But the truth is, i'm gonna blow.

I can't seem to see why you're still mad, I SAY I AM SORRY...can't you see? Can you say to me those words? I didn't see how what i did was bad. But wait, it just hit me. For you to know, i have no troubles with my enemies. But for you my dear friend, our memories are the ones that keeps me walking the floor nights.

Ahhhh .. i have no more words .. For you my dear old friend .. All these words are just from the honest me for you .. Poor me .. Hurt by friendship .. Loyal with pain .. Guilty with love .. Saddened by shame .. =(

• Tak tau nak kata apa2 lagi. Sangat2 sedih.
• Dulu, kita macam adik beradik. Sekarang, kalau boleh, kita tak mahu terserempak langsung.
• Benda ni dah lama. Tapi, aku masih lagi ingat engkau sebagai seorang kawan yang paling aku sayang. Paling aku sanjung. Paling aku respek.
• Kalau boleh, aku nak kita macam dulu lagi. Kua sama2. Makan sama2. Deting sama2. Haha!
• Entahlah... Abg Ngah pernah pesan dulu. Dpn rumah engkau, Abg Ngah kata jangan putus kawan. Tapi.. Entah..
• Lantak la orang nak kata apa. Tapi, aku harap, ko juga akan say sorry. It worth for me.
• Dulu, masa lepak di rumah aku, engkau penah bagitau aku yang engkau tak akan jumpa lagi kawan yg macam aku. Aku pon pnh kata mcm tu. Itu dulu. sekarang? Memang btl kita langsung tak jumpa dah! Kahkah! Bodo!
• Ahh .. i do drop my tears. For the one, who used to be my best friend. =(
• It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend.
• Lagu kat bawah ni utk ko..Sbb suma cd ko ada lagu ni...