It Is Very Hard To Say The Exact Truth, Even About Your Own Immediate Feelings

Much Harder Than To Say Something Fine About Them Which Is Not The Exact Truth

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Iris

mBlog 3rd Copy
Date : 16th January 2008

Day : Thursday
Time : 00:43:27
Venue : Home Sweet Home


So many things cross my mind these days. Am i still who i think i am? Do i have the straight to keep on fighting? All these battles i've gone through. Are they some kind of challange? Or just punishment for the sin of not knowing if i have sinned? My body are bruised and battered. But my mind suffered the most. I thought my way through life. But life fought back.

The more i give. The more i get. I prayed for peace. Hoping for freedom. From all these chaotic situation. Still i get no reply. At least. Not yet. I'm not sure if i should keep on going. Keep on hoping. Keep on wondering. Keep on fighting. Or should i let it be?

Will it count to something? Or will i die for nothing? I can't stop thinking. Am i dying? I'm still living. I'll keep it this way. I'll do it my way. Even there is no way, I'll make my day. This is not the end! Nothing's gonna pinch this nerve of mine. Why doesn't anyone believe in loneliness?

I have million reason why i should run. But, for now, i can't even think of one. who wants to live forever? I'm tired of living...





I love you without knowing how~ or when~ or from where~
I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride~
I love you because i know no other way then this~
So close ... that your hand ... on my chest ... is my hand~
So close ... that when you close your eyes ... I fall asleep~


Just Me ... True Me ... Poor Me ...
--==[[ PrOpErTy Of BadTz ]]==--

End Of Typing: 01:22:14









2 comments:

  1. confusing, not sure, briusing...
    hmm?
    is his heart still mine?
    is our songs still ours?
    is his songs still for me?
    ......?

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