What can I do? Will I be getting through? Now that I must try to leave it all behind
Did you see What you have done to me So hard to justify Slowly is passing by
Forever and one I will miss you However, I kiss you yet again Way down in Neverland So hard I was triyng Tomorrow I'll still be crying How could you hide your lies, your lies
Here I am Seeing you once again My mind's so far away My heart's so close to stay Too proud to fight I'm walking back into night Will I ever find Someone to believe?
Forever and one I will miss you However, I kiss you yet again Way down in Neverland So hard I was trying Tomorrow I'll still be crying How could you hide your lies your lies
mBlog 3rd Copy Date : 16th January 2008 Day : Thursday Time : 00:43:27 Venue : Home Sweet Home
So many things cross my mind these days. Am i still who i think i am? Do i have the straight to keep on fighting? All these battles i've gone through. Are they some kind of challange? Or just punishment for the sin of not knowing if i have sinned? My body are bruised and battered. But my mind suffered the most. I thought my way through life. But life fought back.
The more i give. The more i get. I prayed for peace. Hoping for freedom. From all these chaotic situation. Still i get no reply. At least. Not yet. I'm not sure if i should keep on going. Keep on hoping. Keep on wondering. Keep on fighting. Or should i let it be?
Will it count to something? Or will i die for nothing? I can't stop thinking. Am i dying? I'm still living. I'll keep it this way. I'll do it my way. Even there is no way, I'll make my day. This is not the end! Nothing's gonna pinch this nerve of mine. Why doesn't anyone believe in loneliness?
I have million reason why i should run. But, for now, i can't even think of one. who wants to live forever? I'm tired of living...
I love you without knowing how~ or when~ or from where~ I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride~ I love you because i know no other way then this~ So close ... that your hand ... on my chest ... is my hand~ So close ... that when you close your eyes ... I fall asleep~
Just Me ... True Me ... Poor Me ... --==[[ PrOpErTy Of BadTz ]]==--
All of life is a coming home. All the restless hearts of the world. All trying to find a way home. It's hard to describe what i felt like then. Picture yourself walking for days in the driving road as if you don't even know you're walking in circles. The heaviness of your legs in the drifts. Shouts disappearing into the wind. How small you can feel, and how far away home can be.
HOME.
The dictionary defines it as both a place of origin and a goal or destination. And the storm? The storm was all in my mind. In the middle of the journey of my life. I found myself in a dark wood. For i had lost the right path. Eventually i would find the right path, but in the most unlikely place.
INDIFFERENCE.
What's wrong with life? What are we so mortally afraid of? Why can't we treat life with a certain amount of humanity and dignity and decency and God forbid. Maybe even humor. Life is not enemy. If we're going to fight a disease, let's fight one of the most terrible diseases of all.
UNTOUCHED.
When i was a little child. I would look out my bedroom window at the caterpillars. I envied them so much. No matter what they're before. No matter what happened to them. They could just hide away and turn into beautiful creatures that could fly away. Completely untouched.
DEATH.
To die. To expire. To pass on. To perish. To peg out. To push up flowers. To push up posies. To become extinct. Curtains. Deceased. Demised. Departed. Defunct. Dead as a doornail. Dead as a herring. Dead as a mutton. Dead as nits. The last breath. Paying a debt to nature. The big sleep. God's way of saying "Slow down".
