Pict taken at office... 3 months ago... While free sms last... :)
When the visions around you, Bring tears to your eyes And all that surround you, Are secrets and lies I'll be your strength, I'll give you hope, Keeping your faith when it's gone The one you should call, Was standing here all along..
And I will take You in my arms And hold you right where you belong Till the day my life is through This I promise you This I promise you
I've loved you forever, In lifetimes before And I promise you never... Will you hurt anymore I give you my word I give you my heart (give you my heart) This is a battle we've won And with this vow, Forever has now begun...
Just close your eyes (close your eyes) Each loving day (each loving day) I know this feeling won't go away (no..) Till the day my life is through This I promise you.. This I promise you..
Over and over I fall (over and over I fall) When I hear you call Without you in my life baby I just wouldn't be living at all...
And I will take (I will take you in my arms) You in my arms And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong) Till the day my life is through This I promise you baby
Just close your eyes Each loving day (each loving day) I know this feeling won't go away (no..) Every word I say is true This I promise you
Every word I say is true This I promise you Ooh, I promise you...
--==[[ Penghulu Pesaka Luak Gemencheh. Picture has been kidnaped from the owner's (Penghulu Pesaka) Facebook...My PakBusu Dato' Orang Kaya Setiawan Hj. Badarudin Hj. Dahalan ]]==--
Assalammualaikum warahmatullah Sahabat...
Apa khabar semua? Doa dan harapan semoga sihat sejahtera hendaknya di samping apa jua aktiviti dan tugasan harian sahabat semua di luar sana.
Agak lama saya tidak meng-updateentry baru. Hanya copy-paste kan sahaja entry dari blog saya yang lain. Ada juga saya tukar tarikh entry saya yang lama untuk meletakkannya di muka depan. Dulu, muda2, saya suka mengarang dalam bahasa Inggeris.
Bukan kerana saya hebat berbahasa penjajah, tetapi, bagi saya, kalau mengarang dalam bahasa Inggeris, ayatnya lebih mudah dan straight to the point. Lagi pula, takkan nak taip dalam bahasa Sepanyol pula? Sumpah sepatah haram saya tak tau.
Saya juga bukan seorang yang pandai berpuitis. Apalagi membuat sajak atau syair untuk dilagukan ala2 zaman Merong Mahawangsa gitu. Kan? Kalau dalam bahasa Inggeris, kurang sikit nampak jiwang karat meleleh2nya. Itupun ada yang buleh touching juga kalau dibaca semula.
Berada di kampung halaman adalah merupakan hari2 yang istimewa buat saya. Habiskan masa bersama keluarga. Melepak2 depan televisyen menonton kartun bersama Nabyla dan Natasya juga ada sikit istimewa. Konon sajalah. Padahal boleh jadi saru kepala dengan kartun yang entah apa2 entah."Kakak nak tengok ni... Adk nak tengok ni...." Ayat paling biasa didengar kalau jari saya gatal menekan butang2 nombor channel pada remote. Mahu tidak, terpaksa pasrah menonton kartun.
Bangun seawal pagi. Membantu apa2 yang patut di waktu pagi. Dengan kelam kabut persiapan anak2 saudara, Nabyla dan natasya yang akan ke sekolah setiap pagi. Hantar mereka ke sekolah masing2 kalau rajin. Menyibuk semasa Omak menjadi chef paling agung di dapur. Menjenguk bilik tidur yang dah lama ditinggalkan sepi.
Petang, melayan kerenah Nabyla dan Natasya yang sentiasa bertanyakan macam2 tentang apa sahaja yang mereka ingin tahu. Menonton tv bersama mereka. Macam biasa, terpaksa mengalah dengan channel2 kegemaran mereka. Kadang2 mereka pula mengalah menonton channel2 kegemaran saya. 411, 412, 413, 551, 552, 553, 554, 555. 701, 703. Remote memang sentiasa di tangan kecuali kalau Omak yang on tv dahulu. Hehe.
Malam, maghrib bersama2. Makan malam bersama2. Menonton tv bersama2. Monopoli tv kalau saya dan Ayah yang ada depan tv selepas Nabyla dan Natasya masuk ke bilik untuk tidur. Opkos Ayah join together kalau ada cerita2 menarik di tv. Omak akan terpaksa mengalah dengan channel2 kegemaran anak bujang tuanya yang satu ni. Hehe. Dan apabila semua ahli keluarga masuk tidur, saya masih lagi mengadap tv. Menonton apa sahaja yang menarik sehingga mata betul2 mahu lena.
Di kampung, saya tidak tidur di dalam bilik. Saya lebih suka tidur di atas sofa di ruang tamu. Opkos lah depan tv kan? Saya tidak betah tidur di bilik saya sendiri kerana rasa kurang selesa sementelah jarang pulang ke kampung. Lagi pula, kiri dan kanan bilik saya ada dua lagi bilik kosong dan jauh dari dua lagi bilik yang menjadi tempat peraduan Omak Ayah dan Nabyla Natasya. Kira ala2 'segan' la lebih kurang. Paham2 sudah. :p
Itulah rutin seharian saya di kampung halaman saya iaitu Kampung Pulau/Air Rawa, Gemencheh Lama yang menjadi perkampungan suku Biduanda. Suku paling utama dalam salasilah adat Perpatih Negeri Sembilan. Dan rumah saya merupakan 'rumah tapak' atau ayat mudah fahamnya tanah yang mula2 sekali dibuka oleh keturunan Bangsawan Luak Kecil bumi Gemencheh. Itu yang saya tahulah. Kalau ada salah silap, boleh dibetulkan. Apa yang pasti, asal keturunan saya adalah Biduanda bumi Gemencheh.
30 tahun lalu, masih ada tanah2 sawah dan sungai2 yang cantik. Sekarang, kebanyakan tanah2 tersebut sudah menjadi ladang2 sawit dan getah yang diusahakan bersama di bawah rancangan Risda. Termasuk tanah2 waris dan pusaka milik keluarga saya selepas arwah Datuk dan Nenek meninggal. Sungai2 juga sudah menjadi parit atau sudah kering setelah Empangan Gemencheh dibina di hujung kampung. Sungai2 tempat saya dan adik beradik mandi semasa kecil dulu pun sudah tiada lagi. Kering kontang dan semak samun tanpa dibela.
Sekarang juga sudah banyak rumah2 pusaka yang telah diruntuhkan dan dibina semula menjadi rumah2 batu atau banglo oleh anak2 waris Kg.Pulau yang juga menjadi saudara mara terdekat saya. Pendek kata, pergilah celah mana sekalipun, berjumpalah dengan siapa pun di bumi Gemencheh, semua kenal tanpa kecuali. Andai kata sahabat terjejak ke bumi Gemencheh, sebut sahaja Imam Dahalan, arwah datuk saya yang telah meninggal 18 tahun lalu. Maka akan sampailah sahabat ke rumah saya.
Tiada sebarang gambar yang sempat saya sertakan di entry ini. InsyaAllah, nanti bila ada kelapangan, akan saya update apa2 gambar yang ada dalam simpanan pc saya ini. Sekian dulu sahabat, semoga ketemu lagi nanti.
Assalammualaikum warahmatullah... Salam rindu dan sayang selalu... :)
When I was young and knew everything And she a punk who rarely ever took advice Now Im guilt stricken, Sobbing with my head on the floor Stop a babys breath and a shoe full of rice
I cant be held responsible Cause she was touching her face I wont be held responsible She fell in love in the first place
For the life of me I cannot remember What made us think that we were wise and Wed never comprimise For the life of me cannot believe Wed ever die for these sins We were merely freshman
My best friend took a weeks Vacation to forget her His girl took a weeks worth of Valium and slept Now hes guilt stricken sobbing with his Head on the floor Thinks about her now and how he never really Wept he says
Weve tried to wash our hands of all of this We never talk of our lacking relationships And how were guilt stricken sobbing with our Heads on the floor We fell through the ice when we tried not to Slip, wed say
Life it seems will fade away. Drifting further every day. Getting lost within myself. Nothing matters. No one else. I have lost the will to live. Simply nothing more to give. There is nothing more for me. Need the end to set me free.
Things are not what they used to be. Missing one inside of me. Deathly lost, this can't be real. Cannot stand this hell i feel. Emptiness is filling me to the point of agony. Growing darkness taking dawn. I was me, but gone.
No one but me can save myself. It's too late. Now i can't think why i should even try. Yesterday seems as though it never existed. Death Greets me warm, now i will just say good-bye.
This entry was posted on October 1, 2006 at 9:48 am
--==[[ With Merrah Amanie @ Manhattan Fish Mid Valley Mega Mall 3rd April 2010 ]]==--
For every tear that falls, i will be there for you. For every inch of pain that you feel, i will feel it to. I will be there for you through thick and thin. I will be your rock when you need me to be. I will always be there for you.
For every heart ache you feel, i feel it to. For every ounce of misery you feel, i feel it to. What ever you do that makes you hurt, i will feel it. Love isn't something that you or i can run from. It's a feeling like no other.
When you cry, will cry with you. Through thick and thin, i will always be there for you. When you feel like you have nothing left to live for, remember me. I will always be there for you.
For every time you smile, i will smile with you. For every tear that you cry out of joy, i will cry with you and i will always be there for you.
Remember i looked at u than u looked at me ? we had a love conection between us. U told me u love me and i told u i love u. I gave u everything from me and u took all away. U had to leave me but u never said good-bye but today u come to see me. U wrote to me but i didnt reply u.
Two days ago u said that u love me just like before. But today u said no. How sad it is. And yet! U make me down again. So down. And u make me lost again. Later then we never talk to each other we just say hi or good-bye.
NOW. I moved on. Just like u did to me. Well guess what u r the one with a broken heart just like me. These moments in time are urs. These two moments are urs to keep. Treasure them for we must each go along our own paths. U to ur destiny and I to mine.
The dreams I dream of you, as I lay awake at night. Tears flowing down your face, rivers flowing down mine. As we think of our parting, and reminisce our love. But always remember ... That I am here.. I am here.. I am here in your very beginning. Our love cannot be forgotten for I am here ... I am here .. Hiding from you ..
U and I were the greatest thing that laughter and smiles is what we would bring. We would talk on the phone, until it was time for bed. Even then I would see you, in my dreams, inside my head. Every time I saw you, I would always smile. U could see a glow in my eyes from miles and miles and I wish I was still holding onto u.
But you gotta go now. So what can I do? Now when I see u, there's always a frown. Won't u please turn that sad frown upside down? If u're not happy, then just say ur goodbye. Because seeing u depressed, brings tears to my eyes.
Today I approached you again. But u didn't say a word. I still have feelings for u. Haven't u heard? I miss seeing u smile and laugh. Won't u please remember the fun we had? Holding hands coming from lunch and I miss u a whole bunch! U were all I talked about. Now all I do is walk around the house and being lonely.
I love hearing your voice. It brings a smile to my mouth. It's a sound that I shall always embrace. I had no idea on how I actually felt this way. Please tell me..why does it feel like u're pushing me away? The reason we broke up, we'd already know why. Just thinking about u now makes me want to cry. It was peer pressure..
U said I lied too much. But U would easily take me back with just one touch. Please dont say that the one ur with, for u, doesn't even care. I miss ur way more than just a little bit. But now I need to toughen up.. I know we'll always be apart..That is the reason why right now, I have a broken heart.
Remember that time when I says lets take a break ? But what does a break mean to u? How can u act like i'm not there. Was what i did that bad ? U said we'll be together again. But in my eyes i see hate and in my heart i know u hate me. That is the worst feeling, but in a sense i hate u too.
At the same time i have no idea how i feel about u! My feelings have been scattered in my brain. Giving me a tobbing headache. Then when i looked into ur eyes i know it's perfect and what i've been looking for. But now i'm slowly losing u of my life. I have to hurt u and it must.
Am i left with no way to fix what i've done ?? I am sorry dear... I am sorry. I've noticed myself that i know what u feels i understand and i feel like hell for treating u the way i have I am truly an ugly person inside.. and i am ashamed..
