It Is Very Hard To Say The Exact Truth, Even About Your Own Immediate Feelings
Much Harder Than To Say Something Fine About Them Which Is Not The Exact Truth
Saturday, December 22, 2012
One More Night
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
No Suprises
A heart that's full up like a landfill
A job that slowly kills you
Bruises that won't heal
You look so tired and unhappy
Bring down the government
They don't, they don't speak for us
I'll take a quiet life
A handshake of carbon monoxide
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
Silent, silent
This is my final fit, my final bellyache with
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises
No alarms and no surprises please
Such a pretty house, and such a pretty garden
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises (let me out of here)
No alarms and no surprises please (let me out of here)
Sunday, June 03, 2012
Uprising
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Faithfully

Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Blackout
Hari ini, berlaku lagi gempa yang boleh dirasai oleh rakyat permai bumi Malaysia. Rata2 antara kita juga berkongsi pelbagai maklumat dan pengalaman dari masa ke masa bermula daripada gegaran kuat yang dirasai ptg tadi. Pelbagai spekulasi akan berlakunya tsunami juga disebarkan. Untuk apa? Amaran dan peringatan kepada sahabat2.
Sampai ke saat dan ketika ini, belum ada apa2 berita tentang berlakunya tsunami dan amaran juga ditarik balik. Tunggu sahajalah apa yang bakal berlaku. Semuanya qada' dan qadar Allah swt yang Maha Berkuasa menjadikan dan menentukan sesuatu. Kun fayakun...
Ramai juga yang menyebarkan berita palsu dek kerana keghairahan berkongsi maklumat sesama sahabat. Mungkin juga ada antara mereka yang tidak sedar maklumat palsu boleh mencetuskan pelbagai rasa kurang senang terhadap sahabat2 yang merasai atau mengalami situasi yang sebenar.
Saya perhatikan, ada juga antara sahabat2 facebook yang menerima makian gara2 menyebarkan maklumat yang tidak benar atau sipi2 sahaja kebenarannya. Propaganda yang mengundang publisiti.
Ada juga saya bercadang untuk berkongsi situasi cemas yang dialami lapan tahun yang lalu. Di mana ketika itu, baru 5 bulan menetap di Taman Putra Perdana. Pendek kata, masih kuat lagi bau simen di setiap ruang di rumah ini.
Masih segar lagi beberapa anggota Majlis Perbandaran bermotorsikal yang meronda Putra Perdana kerana kes anjing serang budak ketika semua penghuni Ruvena Villa berlari turun dan berkumpul di padang dek kerana gegaran kuat yang dirasai.
Rata2 penduduk terpinga2 kerana ramai yang telah lena dibuai mimpi pada waktu kejadian. Apa yang didengar di telinga ketika itu hanyalah laungan dan ketukan kuat di pintu mengarahkan semua penghuni mengosongkan bangunan yang dibina di atas lombong ditambak dan dikhuatiri runtuh.
Hanya pada jam 3 atau 4 pagi penduduk dibenarkan pulang ke rumah masing2 setelah berkampung di padang dengan pengawasan pihak berkuasa. Polis, 2 trak bomba dan FRU datang meronda bagi memastikan keselamatan penduduk terjamin.
Apa yang pastinya, kekecohan yang berlaku adalah berpunca daripada bencana dunia yang menyebabkan ratusan ribu manusia terbunuh. Itu jugalah pengalaman paling dasyat yang pernah saya alami seumur hidup saya bersama penghuni 916 dan jiran2.
Ini kenangan yang tidak dapat dilupakan setiap detik dan ketikanya sehingga ke saat ini. Kalau nak diceritakan lagi, rasanya mahu sampai esok saya menaip. Jadi, eloklah sahaja ditamatkan di sini. Perut terasa lapar pula. Mahu goreng cekodok tuna mayonis.
Salam Rindu dan Sayang Selalu. Assalammualaikum Warahmatullah.... =)
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Drowning

Do you long for my tender kisses for that soft gentle touch? Or am i just delusional in this madness i once thought was love?
When i pray, do you feel the power of love i am sending? When i cry, do you feel the pain i am feeling? Every time you turn me away, do you know how i hurt, do you even care?
Do you ever sit alone and wonder what things might have been like together? I am at war with myself every day. I have tried making myself to not care.
I have reminisced the past, and even dwelled on all the memories, all the words we have shared together trying to convince myself.
So many times i see you in my dreams' and i am sure to see you tonight. There you are, within reach, yet i cannot hold you, i cannot kiss you as i desire, and i cannot make you love me as i have prayed for so many nights.
How could i love you so much, yet you hardly know i exist? Sometimes, i feel that you are so careless with your feelings, so nonchalant. I don't know how you do it, how can you not feel my love inside you?
You will forever be there. You are the burden in my heart that will shine in me forever. My head is telling me i am a fool and that the feel must not end. My heart tells me love has no end, no boundaries, no rules or fine lines.
You know nothing about this pain, about the torture. I have searched and searched to find a way to release this pain and i am left with nothing.
Without your love, i will always be left with nothing. This is a game i cannot win. I cannot overcome. I want to give up sometimes, but there is no point in that because the feeling i feel will still be there.
No matter how defeated i may feel, i’ll never end this. Last night as i lay sleeping, a vision came to me. It was of you and i, a wondrous sight to see.
And in the dream i had, i reached and touched your face. I clasped your hand in mine. And felt your warm embrace. You held me for a minute. In this moment that did fleet.
I wakened from the dream with a thought of you that stayed with me throughout the day. And never once did fade. I fall asleep thinking of you. Dreaming of things i wish were true. As i wake i shed a tear, because i awake without you here.
“I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way then this. So close that your hand, on my chest, is my hand. So close, that when you close your eyes, I fall asleep.”
Sunday, January 08, 2012
Unintended

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you
You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
Before you…


